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She knew it was over, just look at her face.
do you want to kill me
Chills. Chills all over my body.
Born This Way Foundation fans, we have some difficult news. Lady Gaga’s doctors have ordered her to postpone her performances in Chicago, Detroit, and Hamilton.
Unfortunately, the Born Brave Bus tour is postponing its stops in Chicago and Detroit as well.
No one is more disappointed by the news than Lady Gaga, and she has a message for you:I am completely devastated and heartsick. I’ve been hiding this injury and pain from my staff for a month, praying it would heal, but after last night’s performance I could not walk. To the fans in Chicago, Detroit and Hamilton, I hope you can forgive me as it is nearly impossible for me to forgive myself right now. I would do anything for you. I will hopefully heal as soon as possible and be at 500% again, which is what you deserve.
But now is when we really need you. If you were going to attend the bus tour in Chicago or Detroit, you are now an even BIGGER part of our efforts to build kindness and bravery in your communities. Check out the Virtual Bus Tour to find out how you can do it!
“Does that say ‘I’m missing Chicago Fire’? I’m missing it too. But you know what I miss even more? I miss You and I”
She’s such a fucking troll
A video of Gaga visiting the Born Brave Bus in St. Paul, Minnesota yesterday. (x)
Our backstage slumber party with Gaga, Tara, Freddie and Fozzi.
Copenhagen BTW Ball September 2, 2012.
The beat drops, she’s moving towards the three steps in front of the stage. Asiel and Amanda consoling her because even if she’s a Bad Kid, it’s alright. They sit down at the top step. I throw my little Hello Kitty purse with the pink and gold triangle necklace I’ve been dying to give her. Asiel sees it, but it’s too early to start picking things up. The song is over. It’s raining presents. Asiel forgets about mine. I hear Josie’s voice in my ear: “Should I take up the signs or??” I say, wait just a minute. I’m standing there blank, staring at the stage. I can’t hear what they are saying. Then it’s just like something just flies right into me, I turn around and almost screaming to Josie, GET THE SIGNS UP! And suddenly I see there’s already a motherfucking sea of paper signs all around me. “Fuck…” But we take the signs up. We have two each of “WE COULD WE COULD BELONG TOGETHER BACKSTAGE” Gaga looks our way. “Take those to gals there with the We Could Belong Together Siiiiiignz” I didn’t realise she was talking about us, hell, I don’t even think I listened, I was just jumping up and down with the sign, still in denial she saw us. Someone is dragging in my arm. Is one of her security guards. “HEY!!” he says and puts on the backstage armband. I’m screaming in his ear “IS IT ME? IS IT ME?!?!? OMG” and cry. “YES!” He yells, quite irritated. I almost forgot about Josie, I remember, turn around again and I see her reaching her arm to the guard and he takes it and puts an armband on her too. I can’t believe it. I’m not following what’s happening on stage anymore. I’m not following what happens anywhere anymore. Josie and I are just STARING at each other. Then the tears come. Fast. And hard. We’re screaming and crying, hugging and jumping up and down. Meanwhile on stage: Gaga has just sat down at her motorcycle and said the “I was just distracting you, and under the meantime my motorcycle turned into a piano” thing. I’m not listening. I’m just crying and kind of having a nervous break down. Our Swedish Monster friends in front of us who met Gaga backstage in Stockholm are smiling at us and looks so truly happy for us. Then I hear Gaga say “Whyy are you cryiiing..?” and she sound sad. I look up, and I get that she was talking about me. I yelled as I was hysterically crying: I LOVVVHEEE YOUUUUUUHH. Then she starts playing Hair. We’re crying the whole way through. Princess Die is not making it better. Plus she brought up our friend Angelica to be her Princess Die tonight…When it’s time for Yoü And I, Josie and I look at each other. It’s already well known to us that this is our song. Now the rest of the concert is pure euphoria. I’ve never felt such a rush. The ache I’ve felt before everywhere had disappeared. I was invincible. After Scheisse we’re getting out of Monster Pit to meet up with the other Monsters going backstage. We’re getting escorted to the left big screen and get to see the two last songs from the side of the stage. Then it’s suddenly Marry The Night and she brings our other friend Alma up. We cry again. She looks at her clothes and says “uh I hope you’re getting home safely…” Audience laughing because of cuteness.. Then Gaga hugs her and reaches for her ass. Next thing she’s fucking grabbing her like Jo does on Gaga in the Yoü And I video and we’re dying. Anyway we get to see almost the whole song before Bruno(I think?) says it’s time to move. We’re walking behind the stage and stop again. Stacey comes with a list where we’re writing down our names and emails. All the dancers walking by with towels over their shoulders. Then Lacee walks by and smiles at us really cute.
And now it’s time for us walk down to the basement. I think we’ve waited for like 45 minutes then we’re getting let in. I see the white and yellow curtains. A scent of flowers hits me. My heart drops.
As soon as we saw her sit there in her couch I started crying like a baby again. I tried to behave because Pete was looking at me but I didn’t care. Gaga looked at every single one of us as we got in, even if she was busy talking with the key holder. She smiled and nodded at us. Then I saw Tara sitting on the top of the couch smiling and giggling and I got all warm inside, she looked so happy and bubbly! The two guys we camped with in Monster Pit line had also gotten backstage and it was all so perfect. We cried and hugged each other when waiting til the key holder was finished talking to Gaga. All of a sudden I see the curtains to the back room move and then Fozzis head pops out! I kinda squealed “iih look at Fozzi!!”, all Monsters head turned and Gaga and Tara laughed. Freddie came out with Fozzi short after that. When the key holder was done and had left the room, Gaga waved us all over and said “Why don’t you all come and sit here! I like doing this way cuz you all can get to know each other”. As the group of 11 little monsters nervously walked over to the couch she said “Me and Tara were watching Beauty And The Beast before you came!” and nodded to the TV hanging on the wall. The DVD menu of Disney’s Beauty and the Beast was playing and I think it played during the whole time we were there.
As everyone was getting comfy in this huge couch I got eye contact with her and felt I had to say something, so I said “I really loved the show, Gaga” and she smiled and answered “Oh you did!! What was your favourite part?” I blanked and said “ehhh I don’t knoooooow I can’t choose just one”. Someone else answered and Gaga said something to him, probably “I love that one too!”. It was hard for me to focus on anything other than the fact that she just talked to me tbh. Everyone was now sitting in the couch/bed/whatever and the two monsters sitting next to me said they had a gift for her and gave her a huge fluffy unicorn. Gaga got really excited and happy and said “Oh thank youuuu” and I kinda died cuz she was so cute. she gave it to Tara and Tara said “I’m gonna burn it later!” and Gaga replied “Oh nooooo, did you hear that guys?”
Gaga’s assistant is now getting ready with her camera and it’s time for group shots. Gaga is so busy with the unicorn so she barely notices, she looks up just in time as she snaps the photo. That’s the photo you see here. The next one we took we all did paws up. After that Gaga wanted to do one more where we’d “pose like we’re all best friends, hang on each other and pose!”
She then asks if we’ve got any questions. Everyone’s quiet. I mumble “eh it’s pretty much blank right noooow…” she wasn’t looking in my direction before but now her head turn real quick and the side ponytail sways back and forth. Someone in the middle asks what inspired her to use the triangle with Mother G.O.A.T and she tells us about the triangle symbol that’s used within the gay community and what it stands for, and “I am fully woman. But I am fully gay as well. In every way possible!” then she adds “Plus it could also be a vagina!” Everyone laughs, she giggles, “but really it looks like it cuz you know, the triangle shape…” And every time she says triangle she forms a triangle with her fingers and holds it in front of her chest, kinda like the Judas heart, but now triangle instead.
Before this and meanwhile she’s talking she is handing out white flowers to all of us(sorry to disappoint you but I don’t think they’re roses but let’s just call it that cuz it sounds sexy) I swear, when she gave me mine and she looked me in the eyes and stays there for probably just a second or two, the whole room disappeared and it felt like way more than just two seconds. It’s like she looked through my soul, trying to understand me and see what kind of person I am and what I’ve been through. Her look then changes, for like a nanosecond but you still pick it up because it all goes in slow motion. The look she’s giving me is “It’s all going to be ok. I’m here and I’m never leaving. We’re in this together.” I think that everyone that has met her knows exactly what I’m talking about. If I had one wish, it would be to let all monsters experience this. I’m looking down on the flower in my hand and try to put it in my knee without it falling off and the Monster on my left side has just gotten their flower, Gaga says something like: “Watch out for the thorns They can hurt you. But I prefer to leave them on. I refuse to cut them off. Because sometimes life can be tough!”
Everyone gets silent again as she hands out the flowers, so she start to talk. She tells us about her trip to Amsterdam. Can’t recall the exact words but it went something like this:
”I don’t know if you know but I took off to Amsterdam last Saturday with…A FRIEND to have a great time you know. (me: weed weed weed weed weed weed) I was kind of low key with my Vuitton Brown and I liked it. It was really nice because we got to have a proper date for once without anyone recognising me. Not that I don’t like the attention! (Tara giggles)
But it’s not like I always have to wear things like the feather hat I had on earlier today!*giggles*
Then I think people continued to ask questions again. Kristian asked what keeps her going. She replied “Well….first of all, YOU. It’s all a mixture of my boyfriendddd, my family…” She said something more but I can’t remember it, I’m sorry. You have no idea how hard it is to focus at this point. It’s a very traumatic experience really. Next question is When are you the most creative and what inspires you? She’s got a very complicated answer to that, but it all ends up with “I can be creative anytime” Next question: Is there going to be a princess theme on ARTPOP? Gaga: “well…princess THEME? Oh I…I’m not sure what I can say because I think that will give away too much. But I’ve been inspired by Dinsey Princesses lately. I’ve always find them fascinating but now I feel like I understand them more. For the first time in my life I can relate to the life they live. All my dreams came true. Because you know they’re superstars and they can do whatever they want, but they always want more”
After this Pete mumbles something and Stacey tells Gaga it’s time, because other people are waiting (some folks from a charity thing apparently) Gaga’s like “oh…ok…” She sounded so disappointed it was the cutest thing. Monsters are starting to move. I look at her and say “uh Gaga..” She said “Yes?:D” before I could continue. I asked her if I could give her a hug and she said “But yes of course” I get up, put my flower and handbag on the floor, she follows my every move. Then I she’s reaching for me and I lean down (she’s still sitting in the bed cuz she’s a queen you know) I briefly touch her right cheek and dive into her side pony tail. She smelled of Fame and her hair smelled even better than that, if that’s possible. Still cheek to cheek, I ask her if she read my letter. We let go of each other and she answers “Yes I promise to read it later!” The girl sitting next to me gave her a letter earlier. I say “No, I mean, It was in a fanbook that these Swedish monsters gave you a couple of days ago backstage?” She lights up and says “Oh yeah the..” Then Stacey interrupts her and says “Oh yeah the fairytale book?(I think that what she said, or maybe mermaid book. Something like that) Gaga’s like “uhh noo I think the..” Stacey: Or no, the fanbook? There was two!” Gaga and I at the same time: “Yeah the fanbook.” She has been looking at me and Stacey, twisting her head back and forth meanwhile this was going on, like a little child it was so cute. Now she looks me in the eyes and says “Yes I did! It was really beautiful…” with her most soft voice and gives me the most beautiful, subtle smile I’ve ever seen and I don’t think I’ve ever seen her doing that before. Her eyes was glimmering. I started to tear up and said “thank you..”.(what the fuck I could’ve said I’m glad you liked it or something but no) Then I say “I love you so much” she answers “and I love you.” I can’t take my eyes from her. She’s giving me that look again. I feel Petes hand on my arm. It’s time to go. The other Monsters had lined up behind me to get a hug and I didn’t even notice. Gaga don’t take her eyes from me, and I’m not letting go of hers either, I say “I love you” again and nodding slowly, tearing up. Gaga nodds too and doing that smile, biting her lip like she does when she’s really moved and says “love you…” and then I take my things, look her in the eyes again, She haven’t stopped looking at me yet. We didn’t say anything more. Just giving each other a look in the eyes again, then I turn around. I think it’s Bruno standing behind me, he says “this way”. He was really nice. Not stressed or anything even tho I know he must have been. “Up the stairs there” I’m just following directions. I can’t think. All I’m doing is staring out in a distance, holding my flower like it was a Lucia candle in front of my chest. He asks if I’m ok, if I enjoyed it. I don’t think I answered. When I got up the stairs, I stayed to wait for Josie. I was crying. Some of the other Monsters were coming now and they were crying. I hugged them as they came up, we rubbed each others backs. Bruno is showing them out. Now Josie comes up the stairs. We’re looking at each other and both of us starting to ugly cry and hug each other. Bruno says something like “oh I know! Here girls, this way” Hope you had a great time. Nice to meet you. Get home safely” We’re going out in the night. Holding our flowers close to our chests. We don’t know where to go, we’re just walking. Crying and practically screaming to each other “CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS RIGHT NOW? WE MET HER. WE MET HER. SHE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL. WE DID IT. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE HEEEEHEEHEEEER.” Pretty much. We calmed down a bit even tho we still cried. We tried to figure out which way to go. We found the way out of the stadium area. We’re quietly crying now. Josie says “We gotta have a cigarette and sit down and just talk it all through before we go home. We have to ventilate everything” I agree. Suddenly we see my two classmates Hannah and Emelie, they were at the concert too. They’re waving, jumping and shouting my name and that they had been waiting for us and was just about to leave. As soon as we’ve walked up to them, I can’t take it anymore. I fold, practically getting down on my knees. I’m screaming and crying til the point I can’t barely breathe. They’re holding me and repeatedly go “AAWHAAW SANNEEEEE CONGRATULATIONS WE’RE SO HAPPY FOR YOU TWO!!” I don’t know what Josie is doing at this point but I know she’s still crying. We smoked two cigarettes, trying to tell them what happened and what she said and Hannah takes a picture of us with the roses. Our eyes are bursting red. Our faces a mess. But we’re so happy, we could die.
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